Mood: sombre

State of mind: extremely disappointed with myself

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When – was the last time you yearned for something so intensely that the only aim/ focus of your life was to achieve it…nothing else mattered to you


This is the quality that differentiates a good or above average performer from a STAR performer.


A Star performer, genius, gives his 100% to the current task at hand – no matter how trivial it is.


Today I played a small chess tournament – everything was going well till the last round. Even in the last round, I was winning. But that is when I lost attention on game – took it too lightly and blundered…result a DRAW instead of my WIN.


I am so annoyed, angry at myself – I have no words to express. This is not the first time I have lost focus like this…and every time I have the same question – how could I do the same mistake AGAIN???


I don’t know what to do now – if you have any suggestion/ advise pls. help me….maybe I should cut my finger – everytime I do a silly mistake 😦


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Anyways, too sick and tired to even curse myself…my behaviour is getting incorrigible. Maybe I deserve to live and die as a mediocre person.
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